babydoll waking up from a dream xxx

babydoll waking up from a dream xxx nov 28 2011 monday 21.07 waking up from my dream last tuesday, i was in the dollhouse, thinking were was i? almost jumped out of bed, he wasnt there... sleeping beside me,his arms wrapped around me... almost jumped out of bed and confused what was going on? i was anticipating it so much,that last weekend would arrive and to finally be with himxxx it made the days and nights overlap each other... my reality and fantasy coming together then the day came,that friday,, i couldnt wait to get out of work,get my luggage, almost run to the car waiting to take me to him xxx omg i remember that feeling of my heart beating so fast.. it seems i couldnt hear anyone else around me... my mind was clouded of only the thoughts of him :)))) he was there,waiting outside the restaurant for me, with a big bunch of red roses just like the first time we laid eyes on each other... in the train journey i wont let him take them away from me,haha i was delighted,so so happy to know i would be with him for these days, i could've stitched myself to his side,blimey!!! haha!!! we sat there at the japanese restaurant,cant help myself smiling from inside... he was there!!!!omg what effect he has on me! we left and walked to go where the train would take us far away from everything... where the sea meets the sand,the seagulls singing all the time xxx we held each other the whole journey, like i am the most important thing in the world... his hand holding mine all the time xxx we got there,smiling knowing that we made it out,together atlast.. we ran away xxxx driving down to the apartment where we will stay, omg!!! i was seeing what my dream was about just a few nights back! i was so shocked,i asked the driver,"was there a fairground happenning here today?" he said its been there for a few weeks, i said to my darling when we got in,i had this dream!!! we were so happy to be there we spent the night kissing and making love... my roses in a jug vase,sittng witness to us!!! we woke up to a the seagulls singing,oh how wonderful to wake up beside him ,,, kissing him,my darling is there smiling,wow good morning!!!! hahaa kept poking him,to make sure i am not dreaming :)))) he said to me,lets go for a walk to the end of that pier... it was cold i thought maybe leave it for tomorrow,but when we got out for the walk, it was cold but not freezing cold,,, windy of course,but it was such fun walking down the pier,we were like kids haha :)) i can smell the cotton candy but he said it was waffles... then we carried on walking,until we came to the place where the carousels are... and i was here!!! in my dream of the other night... deja vu... my dream overlapping my reality... that ferries wheel lit up as we arrived there at the end of the road of our apartment... the carousel,the cotton candy me and him xxxx i stood there for a while... how can it be? what does this dream mean to me? we talked about it over food,over conversations,he said,it is fate... do i believe in fate? i would like to...as my life never turned out the way i thought it would be... hard as i might i ended up the way i thought i wasnt supposed to be... here i am,a sugarbaby... i was thinking of how our week started, he was there,my dance class, we went for a drink around town... we went home together, he left early then we met up for our weekend together,,, the opera,enchanting evening like it was not happenning!!!! but it was and we were there xxxx i slept and he carried me to bed xxx we separated for the sunday evening but couldnt wait to be together again the next eveningxxxx things changed for the next few days,i had to do my own things and felt so unhappy not being with him... on this last weekend of our week together,he held me,he played with me ;) he wined and dined me,,,we pretended at the bar we were strangers,he was asking me if i would come home with him?? ;)))) i joked back,would you take me home tonight? he said he will take me to our home tonight xxx ohh my that felt so right xxxx we slept in each others arms... he made love to me,we made our fantasy into reality xxx he surprised me with a lot of good things to make me happy in this stolen moment we shared xxx we walked those narrow streets,holding hands,i feel safe with him... laughing and joking,looking at the diamonds displayed in the shops... buying those angel cupcakes yumyum and those italian chocolates i love xxx our last dinner together,he held my hand,i kissed it gently.... this was the hand for a few months since we've met,that held me tight... touching me,pleasuring me,embracing me,assuring me,feeding me and holding me ... he sighs sometimes when we are together,i ask him why,the big sigh? he says it is the sigh of content xxx i surprised him with something i thought would put a smile on him xxx for making me very happy,,,oh the look in his face,lit up like a boy!!! i can still he him now...:))) the time came for us to leave our nice place,, to comeback to reality of how we left our lives a few days back ... the feeling i feel,was of happiness, of joy to finally spend that time with him xxx but when i saw him wave me goodbye in my cab,i felt this pinch in my heart xxx but why? i got back to work today,but still dreaming of us... he needed to go back to work,would he be thinking of us? dealt with things as i should,calls to make,calls to answer,answering questions from people in my life... but he was always there,in the corner of my mind... got back cycling slowly down the country lane smiling to myself,suddenly he messages me! he is on way home,looking for me xxx got in the dollhouse,started unpacking my things, memories of our special weekend, coming out of my luggage one by one, it was the stuff i share with him,the smell of him lingering ,,, the box of naughty things he surprised me on the first evening sat on our apartment bed xxxx my roses in my mug vase,reminding me of them witnessing all that happened that shouldnt have ;)))) my card from him reminding me,he is happy to take care of me, smiling,i felt,happy,but reality hits me,that i feel lonely,i feel that longing for him,but i know i shouldnt be... he has his life and so as me xxx he said i am now part of his reality and how happy that makes me ... to this man i have never dreamt of meeting and to feel this way... the time we were away,i tried to say.... i am really sorry,that i have fallen inlove with you,,,that i think i love you xxx i wish i didnt have to,and i know i shouldnt... but i do ....

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